I decided to get off of the normally serious parenting that I talk about and tell you guys about my experience getting my nips pierced. Every once in a while I have to remind myself that you are still that bitch!
The last time I remember being confident was in Junior High School. There was no anxiety, no depression. I just did not give a damn about what people thought about me. But that is a story for another day.
So after over 10 years of feeling insecure and inadequate I decided to do something about it. I looked up ways on what I can do to be more confident. I am well aware that confidence comes from within but since I don't have it my next best bet was to start from the outside and hopefully that can transcend inwards. The two things I like about my body are my boobies. The left and right one. Two things. They're small but perky. So I thought why not take my love for the boobs on a next level. Let me bedazzle them! Being the anxious mess that I am I looked up everything I can about the piercings. One common theme was that people felt more confident afterwards. That was definitely a plus for me.
On the morning of the piercing I woke up an anxious mess. I felt like my heart was going to burst a whole through my ribs and sternum and then proceed to slap me in the face. I said to myself and made a prayer to God and said "Lord if I'm not suppose to do this don't let me find a piercing place. If I can't get it done today I won't get it done at all." The plan was for me to do it during my lunch break at work. I called multiple piercing parlors and only one person picked up the phone. When he did he spoke only Spanish and then hung up the phone on my face. I decided to go anyways. After what felt like eternity lunch break finally came and I was on my way to the piercing parlor with the address in hand. I look up the price and it said that it would cost $120. As I am on the bus and one stop away I notice a shop that says Piercing shop closed. I look on my phone and notice that the piercing place that I was going to no longer existed. I got off the bus and looked up another parlor. Ok it says 5 minutes away. Not bad. I get to the place and the lady said ok it would be $120 but the lady isn't here let me call her. Sorry but she can't come in. Now if this isn't a sign! I leave the place and put in another address and I keep my eyes on my phone the entire time I'm walking. For a quick second I look up and there is a sign saying piercing/tattoo done here.
Like Paulo said in the book the Alchemist-"When you really want something the universe conspires in helping you to achieve it."
In any event I get inside and tell the guy I'm here to pierce the nips. I made sure that it was a new needle and the rings were sterilized. He says ok it would be $50 DOLLARS! Only 50! That's a plus. Now is the time to get pierced. Mind you I pushed out a baby and have broken some bones over the years but when that needle went through my nipple that was PAINNNNN I could barely stand up. I thought I had a high tolerance for pain but no the hell I don't. I looked at it and said ok I'm just doing one I don't have the tolerance for two. The guy was like no do both it would look so good. *He was a lot a bit a pervert but there was only guys there so hey. Now it was time for the second one and it hurt just as bad. Once I looked in the mirror I was like I don't know if I like them. I felt like a heathen, a whore, a prostitute (No shade to the whores out there). After work I went to the comfort of my home and looked in the mirror and I said B*TCH you BAD! I LOVED IT! I literally wanted to show the world. That night I had to sleep on my back because of the pain and the next day they felt sore but the day after I no longer felt it. I wore a sports bra for a week and of course clean it as directed. But I can't stop looking at it. People always ask if my nip senses are gone or heightened. Honestly there's no difference to me but everyone is different. It is a little longer than the width of my nipple. So there is room to move it around but I think it makes it look so cute when wearing clothes on top.
Now did it grow my confidence? Yes and No. I say yes because I can NOT WAIT until the Summer so I can wear bikinis and show them off. I love how they look when I'm home and yes I want to be naked all the time. But my insecurities are at the highest when I'm at work. Did my confidence at work increase because of 2 piercings? Not at all. But I don't regret doing them at all!
If anything my confidence increased because I actually went through with getting them pierced and didn't chicken out.
What are you doing to make yourself feel HAWT?
